Hi ya All,
Sometimes there are nights such as I'm experiencing now. I feel hot, the kind of way like it is hot, like in temperature. Some more feelings begin to surface, like sadness...
*sigh* I miss my sis.
... Loneliness and missing out on essential items in my life and at this time not being able to hide away from these feelings, by dreaming away and creating people-like fantasies or should I say mirages.
I miss my covering up from the truth, real life; because I like it, it's easier that way, it makes it more convenient.
I like dreaming, letting my emotions go and make something, create something (good).
But now I can not hide, I got to face life, no hideaways, no 'easy' way out.
I know, I've got friends and I know it's me who's got to face life and deal with it and deal with the problems (some I created myself), with the help of my friends; but ultimately it has to be me. It's got to be me !!
Friends to me, are like family; I can not live without them !! They inspire, listen, point in a direction, are a shoulder to cry on, but also make you laugh, smile and even show you what you're doing wrong and make you understand why.
One of my friends helped me tonight, laughing, writing about feelings, being positive, even in hiding out a bit, but also maybe trying something different.
She's life, she's full of life, she's sweet, creative, funny and she has this incredible gift to put a smile on my face, regardless of the situation she or I am in.
Although you're very much younger then I am, you are still very wise, creative and so talented in writing and storytelling !! Your my friend, my pal, my concience and my source of inspiration.
I LOVE you Shai !!
You're the best !! I'm so happy to have met you.
You are like my sis was to me !!
Groetjes, Cheers, Gruessen,
Eva
